HOWDYYYYYYYY!!! It has been 5 weeks since I last posted here...I am sorry..BAD BLOGGER::::BAD BLOGGER...
As I have always said, Yes LIFE is so much better the fiction...cause you just can not make up some of the CRAP........
5 weeks ago, I thought things were going perfect...life in general, job going well...feeling great about starting classes again in the fall for my Doctorate Degree in Nursing, training for my first HIM Tri was going really well... Bad News First then the Good Stuff!!!!!!!
SAD/BAD: just a quick note and not going to mention it again... so that you may understand some of the mind set and emotional mess I have been over the last 5 weeks.
June 1st, my world came to a screeching halt....I was informed of somethings pertaining to my relationship with my husband...and because of those disclosures I had to make a decision on where I wanted our relationship to go or even if it was to go on any further...I will tell you this: This was one of the most difficult decisions to make for me. Because of some the choices he had made, I had to make a decision and I have ended our relationship after 13 years and 2 days of being together...
We have talked since that date and we will no longer have a marriage but maybe some day we will be friends again. But the actions that caused me to have to make my decision can not be taken back or changed. My heart and trust has been shattered and I am not sure if I will ever get the pieces back together again. But God will take care of me cause only GOD knows what He is doing, where as I have NO CLUE!!!!
GOOD:
I COMPLETED MY FIRST HALF IRON DISTANCE TRIATHLON!!!!!!!!!!
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1.2 mile swim: 46:44 minutes (I had given myself 55 minutes to do this part of the race) here is the link to my Garmin Swim Patriots HIM Swim...It was amazing...Water was warm... lots of people around, I was not nervous as I thought I would be...A couple of times I got hit in the head or one time swam over but for most of the swim I would be next to my friend and fellow Super Woman Maryann Buma...just swimming away...My goal was to stay with her as far as I could, I know she is a faster swimmer then I am and I figured if I could stay with her till at least the second turn, then I was doing pretty good.
T1: 7:01 minutes..T1 Garmin Link.Had a hard time getting the wet suit off the wrists and my left calf...Finally got it off and skipped putting the compression socks on cause it took to long to get the wet suit off( regretted that later).
Dry bike shirt, bike shoes, helmet, race belt with number and sunglasses on and off the back end of transition and mounted the bike and off we goooooo..
56 Mile Bike: Bike garmin Link 3hrs 33minutes & seconds: Not too bad, legs felt great...Passed one or two people but many more many more many more passed me....lots of comments on what a great bike I have...( still did not make me that faster...) loop one went well no falls or not too much wind...Then loop two. Very happy with my times...( I had given myself 4 hours to complete the bike)...Several TRI NE teammates fly by me and speak encouraging words THANK YOU!!!! Love ya all....did really good on fluid intake and nutrition. Felt strong when I got off the bike.
T2: about 4 minutes T2 Garmin Linknot 100% sure..forgot to lap the Garmin when I dismounted the bike...but quick toss of bike shirt and helmet and grabbed fuel belt and was off...
13.1 "TROT": (noticed I said TROT not RUN...2 hr 54 minutes and 47 seconds or so.... Patriots TROT Garmin LinkFirst three miles I had wobble or BRICK legs...Then the next two miles were awesome...Then I HIT THE WALL....I was thinking as i had gotten off the bike and started to run,,,,Damn I can do this, I can not wait to sign up for my next HIM....About mile 5 I was "ARE YOU NUTS???? Your going to be lucky to survive at all...Why did you do this to yourself?" SO I walked a while...then I ran/trotted...then repeated the pattern till I got to mile 10 or so and then I basically walked the next 2 miles straight..
Trying hard to keep my spirits up. and not cry...I had a lot of thoughts going through my head...about my separation from my husband, my decision to move with my job to the new hospital, about not being in Florida with my grand babies, then I would take a DEEP Breath wipe away the tears and say "I CAN DO THIS: CAUSE I CAN NOW!!!
About Mile 12.5 , I see my Tri Coach Tara...It takes everything in my power not to cry and stop to catch my breath..I had started to trot again about 0.25 mile prior and when I saw her I KNEW I WAS ALMOST THERE...THE FINISH LINE....Tara ran with me to the end of the little bridge which leads you to the finishers shoot..and that AMAZING FINISH LINE... I was crying all the way to the end...trying to breath and running a little harder and faster with each stride...
As I cross the finish line a friend Cheryl Osborne was volunteering there and she was hugging me and I was trying not to be a blobbering fool.....
6 years 11 months and 3 weeks before, I could not walk 2 blocks or go up one flight of stairs cause I was over 265 pounds and had a list of medical issues..That day June 16, 2012 starting at 7:04 am and going for 7 hours and 26 minutes I did something less then 1% of the world will ever be able to say they did!!!!! I was 575/595 that finished BUT I DID IT, I COMPLETED A HALF IRON DISTANCE TRIATHLON..
The next 5 to 10 minutes are a little blurry as I was being lead the the TRI NE Team tent...getting hugs and sharing my tears of joy with others, Jen Tripp and Leslie Battle, and about 30 others....I wish I could name all of you here but I am sure I will forget someone and then I would really feel bad!!!
Finally done at the end of the day and head back to RI...drop of the Jeep at the garage and go home to finish packing for my trip to San Diego Ca for the next week....and that is another story for another day...and just let me say this....I ROCKED THE PATRIOTS HALF IRON TRIATHLON and by the way I rocked that blue evening gown a few night later at the conference too,,,,,,
So now what you may ask??? RACING: Well a couple more 1/2 marathons, another 1/2 IRON TRI..(Sept 9th, 2012 FIRMMAN, in Narragansett, come see me race!!!). School: DNP: starts in September. WORK: Love my job and what I get to be blessed with and do every day.
Personal Life: Well we will see where that goes, for now I am still going to be working on who I am and who I am becoming.
NOW YOU GET OUT THERE AND DO SOMETHING ANYTHING CAUSE YOU CAN!!!!
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